mmmmm... mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm... Guys voices are so nice. I don't think they realise this, but if they "mmmm" (girls too, but it doesn't work so well) then they have this funky vibration going, and if  you put your head to their chest it's just... aww.. so good...

anywho, I'm feeling very much in that "blah" mood. The year's almost finished. 3 and a half weeks left. and that could potentially be the end of Tafe for me, or even photography. I don't really mind, just let the breaze guide me.

It's Novemeber... Where did the year go? I remember crying last january at the thought of the year being such a long time, and it is really. It was such a long time. Especially when you're wanting things to happen. I am really very stoked the year has passed.. but I'm so old now. And by that I mean I act old.

I think I'm quite sad, but it's a sadness I want to be in. I get everything served to me, I'm such a bludge. but I hopefully won't be for long. I really want to push myself into a disgusting place where I'm completely out of my zone. Where I get to be someone else, and people don't think there's something wrong with you.

Anywho, have a sweet one Mr. World Wide Web

xxxx Have a good night

Howdy,

It's Tuesday and I've spasmed my back. Who knows how but it hurts but the sweet bit is all the baths *drool* though I feel a little guilty that people can't drink water and yet here I am practically filling a bath tub (or 2 some times *blush*) full of water.

But I guess it does save water instead of the shower, or so the theory goes in the darkroom. So, the back spasming thingy has made me a little cranky towards my folks, so I've decided to isolate myself a little :) My greatest weakness is holding my tongue, so I figure I should just make it unnecessary to use it :D... God will help me get there some day... But anywho, so I was looking for an outlet for this crankiness, and being that it's cold and wet here at the moment, that takes boxing out of the equation. So taking a page of inspiration from some champs who are "devianters" I've gone back to my art books and am going to hide in my desk fort (which is about 20cm too short  for me to lie down in but with my computer as a foot stool it makes nice). And so, with free "myspace.com" to give me my free dose of such bands as Reliant k, and Jupiter Sunrise (which neither I can afford to buy) and my strawberry and banana milkshake to attend too I'll be off to relieve some of this grrrness and hopefully come up with some of those long awaited art thingys... cheerio

and have a sweet day :)

there's always that funny reason to smile

Currently Watching Fruits Basket Box Set see related

"I was so happy, you were laughing
With a smile that melts everything away

Spring is still far away, inside the cold earth,
Waiting for the time to sprout 

For instance, even if today is painful
And yesterday's wounds remain
I want to believe that I can free my heart and go on 

I cannot be reborn
But I can change as I go on, so
Let's stay together always" 

Not to sound like an even bigger nerd, but Fruits Basket is AWESOME!!!Thanks MLE :D 

I feel a little tired, a little hungry and a little annoyed...

Money sucks...

Objects suck...

I don't like being taken advantage of...

I don't like being the object...

I don't like being a parasite...

I don't like being angry...

And I don't like trying to hold back tears when all I want to do is cry, and I've held them far too often lately...

But I'll wake tomorrow and I'll start the day fine with a smile. I'll work hard and still smile.I'll live and I'll smile...

... But I'm a bad girl, and I want to cry.....

Currently Listening Hello, Dolly! By Louis Armstrong see related

Well, yes it's that time of year again for... *gasp*... Tertiary Applications! How exciting... Sounds strange but I'm drooling over the idea of unis and exams and 10000 word essays. Forget about the art degrees of being graded with a "competent" or "re-enroll". it's all very exciting... Until I noticed the registration fees for each state... (pause to gob smack)...

Yes.. I'll be paying $120 to apply to three separate states this year because I am mature *snicker* (whoever came up with that idea?). But what it comes down to is that I don't care. There's that sweet taste of knowing I'm happy with whatever happens... Exciting and scary.. But hey, If I'm going to be rejected by all 10 unis then bring it on I say!I know my beloved TAFE loves my obscure workings... hehe, obscure, that they are... hehe knickers and chocolate...